okay. so legalism is sneakin' in and it is so stinkin' DUMB...i'm not even kidding....galatians is SO clear that we are set FREE because of christ and that we should not be burdened by the yoke of slavery....and the thing is--that was written to a group of ppl not becoming slave to sin struggle, but slave to human effort of performance based christianity....yea, sign me up for that group these days. DUMB, i tell ya

i have created this set of laws in my head wtih my job that i am always failing at....my schedule is becoming an idol that i can't attain....like if i get up 15 min. later than planned, my day might as well be a flop and i shouldn't be an intern....cause i must be lazy.....lame lame lame....

but TODAY, i got to see freedom....ah and i LOVE it....my day was very go wtih the flow...or wait....go with the SPIRIT....i got to meet with students i've never met, i got to spend time talking to women i didnt PLAN on...and i even got to do some coffee shop planning time with matt by my side....and take that satan---God worked despite my haphazardness....imagine that!

ok. so i'm a verbal processor and if that didnt' make sense, dont even worry about it....hakuna matata!!!!

oh i forgot how much i'm able to sort out my life and what God's teaching me through xanga....GO GOD!!

oh. and we have a caterer. :)

man oh man, i forgot how much i love xanga!!!  i've sure missed y'all!! 

thanks for the advice, girls....oh we've set boundaries and we know each other very well...and we've seen sweet victory lately...it's crazy because i feel like i've experienced the real, genuine, humble, desperate GOSPEL in this area more than any....i love hte intimacy it creates wtih the Lord, you know?  self control is a fruit of the SPIRIT and it requires dependency on HIM, not on myself....which is sweet.....marta likes to call and give random police checks and it half way cracks me up....well, it does. i laugh..but then i praise God....

tongiht we had our mexico fun night and got to give out some info on spring break....i'm pumped...i burned my finger on the oven, though....it hurts, man!

zach and matt talked politics tongiht....well....sort of....they got on taxes and public schools so i half way fell asleep and then decided to go home....haha....that'll wear a girl out!

my brother and i got to talk on the phone a lot today and yesterday and i think even the day before....i miss him more than anybody from home....he's like a best friend brother, you know??  and it's fun that he still calls me so we can talk about honest sin struggles and laugh our heads off....

man...it's off to bed....my roommate's home again--no more by myself nights....WOOHOO

i miss you too, cuddle bear!

heck yea you guys read this thing!! WOOHOO!!  ok....so here are some more wedding details...

our colors are light blue and chocolate brown....both of our favorite colors are blue so we're gonna go with it--no hesitation!!  so the dresses will be tea length--outdoor, humid, kentucky july...yea boy!  kaila and jami are two of my bridesmaids from project....ruder, zach houston, and cupcake (best man) are three of the groomsmen that are from project....christian rainbolt might do the actual ceremony...marta will be reading scripture....and yea...we'll have 6 bridesmaids and groomsmen, but those are just the ones y'all know....

tomorrow we're going to get registered!!!  i can't wait!!!  p.s. does anyone have advice for how the heck you stop tryin' to get all up in each other's grill before marriage??  bring on the truth, sistas!  haha...hot dang i miss y'all!!! 

and yes, rebec...our phone date is LONG overdue.....

oh, and snowboarding yesterday rocked FACE!!  i have a really sore neck and really sore arms and bruises on me knee caps, but it was sooo worth it...i got the hang of it.....three cheers for longboarding lessons last summer...what what! 

oh. and is anyone else here scared of being home alone??  cause marta and jenn are both gone this weekend and i made matt come to my house and walk through it and then i teared up before he left.....how old am i?  TEN??  yikes. :)

hey y'all!!  it's been a while!!  the summer is comin to a close and that's absolutely CRAZY!!! i've just been babysitting my little girl--carlie and i think if it's possible to have a best friend who's six years old, she's definitely in my top three favorites this summer. that girl is amazing....

but now i'm home in lebanon finishing up my support. i think i've told most of you, but i'm doing an internship with crusade starting on august 13th at University of Norhtern Colorado and i'm EXTREMELY excited!!!!!!  God has been providing SOOO much for me financially and I'm trusting He will provide the rest. But this is where I need your prayer.  I want to leave my beautiful Kentucky on august 7th, which is in two weeks.  I'm still short 1000 dollars a month.  This, of course, is no big task for Jesus---He will meet all of my needs....but I'm asking you to pray that God would give the people here in lebanon giving hearts and that He would give me a heart that trusts Him and is diligent in perservering...it seems like it's so easy to just drag my feet at this point and it's been very easy to not trust my Jesus.....i have to trust.  and i also want to challenge you to pray about possibly joinoing my team as well....man, if only half the people on my list would give 25 dollars a month, i would be finished and able to start my job on time.....so pray, guys....and definitely join my team--i mean who WOULDNT wanna get a newsletter from me each month...COME ON! hahaha

p.s. matt mitchell is coming here in TWO DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!  he's gonna meet my family and i get to see his face for the first time in almost 7 months....PRAISE GOD!!!!

but man, i haven't gotten to read through y'alls blogs yet so i'm really sorry.....i miss your lives in a gargantuan kinda way...I LOVE YOU!!

so i'm at the library with my six year old friend named carlie--the bomb diggity if i do say so myself. she's trying her best to embarass the heck out of me--and i think it might be working. she likes to scream hotmail.com wiht a british accent...of course i do it right back and that doesnt help a thing...umm...oh yea and then she lays on the floor and says freestyle..ooohh yea....wow. she's unique. and i love her. and i'm gonna miss her more than you may ever know....

oh yea...and she's in love with matt....she's sweet.....she just said "oh how could you"...hahahha....ok, so not IN LOVE...but she loves him...like a big brother. "oh good' she said...hahaha.....anyway....i miss you guys...big time....